Most people yearn to have children the “normal” or “easy” way. You know, a good bottle of wine and lots of time to enjoy a cherished partner; do it one time with the best orgasm ever. Thinking about when you will get pregnant and how many children you will have? It’s simple, you just… (fill in the blank for every dumb thing anyone has ever said to you about getting pregnant).<\/p>\n
The reality is that one in eight straight couples in the United States doesn’t have an easy story. That’s a lot <\/em>of people. While lesbian, gay and transgender intended parents often see family-building options as a wonderful opportunity to have genetic or biological children, their efforts may also not result in having a child. Assisted reproduction—whether it be inseminations or in vitro fertilization (IVF) with donor sperm, the use of donor eggs, or gestational surrogacy—and adoption cost money, time, a heck of a lot of effort, and the kindness of other people.<\/p>\n Everyone who struggles with infertility has what I call “The Big Fear”: not being able to have genetic or biological children. Genetic refers to using one’s eggs or sperm. Biological refers to being able to carry a child to term. In this article, I am talking about saying goodbye to biological parenthood.<\/p>\n You started out with hope and access to enough cash to try to have a baby. Maybe you have been thinking This will work!<\/em> When your cycle doesn’t result in pregnancy, you might calm yourself by reminding yourself, It doesn’t always work the first time. Next time will be the lucky charm! <\/em>At some point, though, your enthusiasm or financing is wearing thin. Let us say that you have tried everything that you feel comfortable with to achieve a pregnancy, but you have not had success. The Big Fear has come true. Maybe you must now consider letting go of the dream of a biological or genetically-related child.<\/p>\n My heart goes out to you. This happens to other people, right? Why is this happening to you? Whether you have a medical answer to this question or not, the result is grief, deep and unfair and raw. You have had plans and dreams for your children and for yourself as a parent. You imagined how this child would resemble you or your cherished partner. That part of your dream may have come to an end.<\/p>\n One does not “get over” this loss. Rather, you must live in the hurt, as you learn to live with and find peace with this terrible reality. This is a time of transition to the next part of your life. There is no particular timeline for this transition period. You may be open to parenting in a different way, like using donor eggs, donor sperm, donor embryos, surrogacy, or adoption. All of these are excellent paths to parenthood. I hope that you will open your hearts and minds to these options when you are ready. Or maybe you are considering living childfree.<\/p>\n One does not “get over” this loss. Rather, you must live in the hurt, as you learn to live with and find peace with this terrible reality.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n How do you start moving forward to explore these options? For now, working through the following questions can guide your process toward healing with some sense of peace and dignity.<\/p>\n Questions to Guide Your Healing<\/strong><\/p>\nInfertility and "The Big Fear"<\/h2>\n
Know That Loss Doesn't "Go Away"<\/h2>\n
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